Hm... Hear's to spending another night alone; only difference is that tonight's Halloween. I think I might pay my cousin a visit at the graveyard and hopefully finding my grandfather as well.
October 2010
Just google anaface :D
Oh alright haha. :) Thank you.
Disappointing
Overall, incredibly disappointing day. It could more on my personal stand point but I am disappointed. I can remember every little detail about my performance, the reason why we lost was because it was boring and sloppy, the people that should know what to do properly can’t even be respectable or follow others, and I couldn’t even spend my mother’s birthday with her. I really hope only one person saw me crying because he was sitting in front me the second time it happened. I can’t wait for Saturday of next week because it will finally be over.
I don’t want to give up because I hate the fact that things are simply repeating themselves and always will be. I still want to believe there’s some hope but I always see you with her. I’m sick of myself, knowing that I probably will never appear “perfect” to you or anyone else. I just give up now and just admit that I am wasting my time on you. There isn’t a point anymore in trying.
Going to bed now…
My silence is my self defense.
9 days left. I’ve had my fill of it. I am ready for it to end because there is just so much I would rather not see. I have my breaking point and hopefully I can get over you. Sometimes I really feel like that even if I do something new, things just repeat themselves. I hate knowing that the past couple of years have been entirely redundant. Ugh I’m just gonna shut up because hardly anyone listens or cares. Some things just never change. Hopefully sleep will provide some comfort for this restless mind…..
Oh. My. Freaking. God.
Short post on today: Basically nostalgia from being in my elementary school for the first time in 4 years. That was ridiculous. I can’t remember too much of anything else besides what I just found out an hour or two ago.
My FAVORITE band (Marianas Trench) of ALL TIME will be in MY STATE IN A FREAKING WEEK. A WEEK GUYS!!!! Oh my God, I need to go to this since it’s a free live acoustic set in a mall with an autograph session!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH someone kill me!! It’s 2 to 3 hours away and it’s the same day as the freaking SAT’s!!! I need to go, I think I might not be able to talk to anyone for a month if I can’t go to this. Free. Acoustic. LIVE. I can’t sleep now.
And I could spill my guts out...
If I only had the guts to actually say it.
I came so close to breaking down today. I have be strong for the next two weeks. I don’t want people to see me cry, especially the band. It just gets… so hard sometimes. I really hope the past six months weren’t a waste of my time because it’s beginning to feel like it. Just two more weeks. I’m sorry but for a while now, it hasn’t felt like my sanctuary at all.
I wonder if they know just how much it hurts…
Heyy there Kait :)
What's your dream job?
Hi there Jiselle :)
Hm… I’m not really sure. I’d love to just travel the world and just take breathtaking photos of everything I see, experiencing different cultures, drawing at my free whim and enjoying music in every way possible. Either that or become well versed in ancient history and know all of the Greek mythology. That would be really cool. But truthfully, I really don’t know what I can see myself doing as a full time career.
(P.S. I still love your background and I think your name is amazing <3)
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oo haii, you look pretty =)
Why, thank you :)
I like your picture by the way haha
I just feel like I'm never the girl who wins. I always get the nervous heart flutter for the wrong boy, or he feels like the right boy and turns out he was made for somebody else. He's never meant for me, it seems. I feel like every other girl has already found her other piece, when I don't even know where my puzzle is. I'm not giving up really, but I'm just so sick of waiting. Why is it just me?
I’m the kind of girl who is quiet in large groups or around people I don’t know; you only see the real me if we’re close. I smile and laugh a lot, especially at the most inappropriate times. I’m a hopeless romantic who’s too afraid to fall herself. I trip over air, up stairs, and over people’s feet. I am the hardest person to offend, but it is all too easy to make me feel horrible. I hate telling people about my problems; they don’t need to worry about me. I’m the one who listens to other people’s problems. I believe people should not be judged before one takes the time to get to know them, yet I am guilty of doing that exact thing. I love to think rather than talk. I prefer rainy, cloudy days to sunny ones. I’m awkward, clumsy, shy, strange… but this is me. Take it or leave it.